Oh, the holidays

So Thanksgiving has come and gone and that was......different. Have you ever been some place, repeatedly, yet still feel like you never really belonged there? That about describes my relationship with the boy's aunts. You think after 14 years of in knowing them, 11 years of attending holidays-and contributing in some way, that I would feel more welcome.

Nope.

Quite the opposite. I have always felt on the outside of this family. And of course, with it looming that we will be moving to another state, it's upped the awkward level a bit. I do strive to be better than I was, I suppose. Seriously though, I'm basically down to one aunt who will speak to me, their father, and the uncle who married in. And the kids, of course, but even then only the oldest of them treat me normal.

Have I mentioned these are my exes siblings? Yeah. You want a good awkward level, I got one for you.

All I know is thoughts of next year got me through the day. I am so excited to be able to do things our way. To be able to have people over who will actually eat what I make, and not complain that it's not processed or pre-made. I've already started compiling recipes, and it's going to be great.

Now... I just have to make it semi-sanely through the next 30 days. California and wedding, here we come!